Just want to vent because I’m not feeling to good about myself. Hopefully this is a space for me to get these feeling out. Long story short, I got on the scale yesterday and found that that I gained another six pounds. I am currently weighing 186 and to be honest I’m not really seeing how. I’ve been going to the gym but it just seems like my weight is just fluctuating. I honestly feel so unattractive. When my boyfriend and I met two years ago, I was skinny. I weighed about 140ish pounds. If you look in some of my earlier photos on here you’ll see. When I was on the phone with my friend he mentioned that I do look different than when we first met. Needless to say. It made me feel bad because he never said that to me before.
I actually thought that I had been making some real improvements but according to the scale, I am now 6 pounds heavier.
Now, I’m not going to go into drift mode, although everything in me wants to find comfort in some chocolate. I think this would be a great opportunity to really do this right. From now on, I’m going to make sure that I am cognoscente of some major lifestyle that need to start today!
I think I just really need help getting it right. So there it goes. Since they say admitting it is the first step, here I go;
I need to lose about 46 lbs..
Wish me luck.. I need it.